This day she had been gifted with riding boots to borrow
while we are at the ranch. Sandy, owner and operator of Raven Rock Ranch, casually
mentioned that she had bought some riding boots for the children who visit the
ranch, feeling it was important because of the angle in which the child’s heels
rest in the stirrups and the message it sends to the horse. Meg had been
wearing rubber rain boots which are cute and keep moisture out, but would not
protect her feet from her four-footed angel, Rusty’s 1200 pound body if he
were to misstep or offer the freedom to dip her heel in the stirrups. At any
rate, Sandy told Meg the boots were in the tack room and to find a pair that would
fit.
Meg later told me the boots were still in the box—brand new.
“I knew Sandy expected me to wear them and I knew they were better for riding,
and for Rusty too, so I wore them, but I felt guilty for wearing them”. She did
not have to explain any further for I, too, have known this kind of guilt---an unworthiness
for receiving something without any merit on my part--But Meg did continue. She
asked, “Why would she do something so nice for me? She really doesn’t know me
that well and she spent her money on me”. Without a thought, I softly replied,
“Because she loves you, Meg…because she loves you and wants the best for you”. She was quiet the rest of the ride home and
even for awhile once home. I imagine that she was processing that someone she
has only known a short time genuinely cares about her. Later that night, when
her Daddy came home from work and asked about the ranch, the first thing she
mentioned, with those dancing, chocolate eyes, was the riding boots! This time
joy oozed with each spoken word, not guilt.
Misplaced guilt, guilt that is not warranted because we have
done nothing wrong or dishonored God in anyway, sneaks in to rob us of the
freedom we are meant to live in Christ. It destroys our joy and binds us to feelings
of unworthiness. Misplace guilt isolates us, sentencing us to a life deprive of
acceptance for who we are in Christ. It focuses on
self, rather than on Christ. Simply, misplaced guilt is crippling.
I have known for a long time that Meg believes she has no
value, that she was an accident, and is loved only out of obligation and to
have watched her agonize unnecessarily over a precious, thoughtful gift broke my heart---
and yet I wondered if this gesture of kindness would be the spark she needs to expose
her value. We haven’t been back to the
ranch since this day, but I am eager to see how she feels when she pulls on
those leather riding boots later this week. It is my
prayer that she will wear them in freedom and not out of obligation or guilt---that she will embrace this beautiful gift and see her worth.
We do not need to feel guilt for something that honors God. The only way to battle the crippling effects
of misplaced guilt is to live rooted in the absolute, unshakable belief in the
promises of God, hold them close to our hearts, and never doubt Who He is; what
He has done and will do for us. This is called “living by faith”—having complete
confidence in “future grace” and a life of freedom from crippling guilt. Doubt
is a tactic Satan loves, absolutely loves to employ as it keeps us from living fully
vested in Christ.
Meg talks constantly about Raven Rock Ranch, Rusty: her
angel in a horse suit (!) and Sandy, her faithful sidekick and mentor
constantly as each element of this piece of heaven on earth has gifted her with
a joy that I have never, never seen before. The boots…she will wear them every
visit and I believe they will serve as a reminder of her value---someone loves
her and cares about her, not because they have to, but because they want to—they
choose to!
“My grace is
sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians
12:9).
Can we, like Paul, not only find contentment in weakness, hardships, persecution, and calamities, but also view these circumstances as opportunities to exalt Christ? Our value is intricately woven into this scripture and begs us to keep our focus on Christ, the Author and Perfector of our faith and not on our self. It is here that we see our value. He chose us! He loves us! He forgives us! He blesses us…even with boots!
Can we, like Paul, not only find contentment in weakness, hardships, persecution, and calamities, but also view these circumstances as opportunities to exalt Christ? Our value is intricately woven into this scripture and begs us to keep our focus on Christ, the Author and Perfector of our faith and not on our self. It is here that we see our value. He chose us! He loves us! He forgives us! He blesses us…even with boots!