We spent an hour together in an open air bistro where
coffees and mochas sprinkled our table for four while the hustle and bustle of
Seattle laid backdrop to the tenderness of our time together. My husband,
Dennis, sat by my side and J., the Safe Families Coordinator, sat by hers. No
one in those moments, however, could have stolen my attention from her. My eyes rarely left hers and my heart ached as
I tried to comfort a mother who just escaped her husband’s latest rage against
her, leaving her penniless, homeless, with a crushed hand in desperate need of
surgery and a newborn baby. Perfect strangers:
one in position of great need, the other in a position to help.
Our conversation began with business. It had been done, the
legal ins and out of us caring for her son while she underwent surgery and
recovery. In short, Dennis and I would follow a set of rules, laws, and guidelines
as would she. She understood that she would retain custody of her son though he
would be in our care for X-amount of time. She would also be responsible for
any medical bills that may occur, promise not to sue us or Safe Families, etc.
if anything unexpected should occur. I studied her face as J. carefully explained
these crucial points--points that were meant to put her at ease, answer any
questions she might have, etc., but I could see that she could have cared less
about that part of it. She appeared to be calloused; yet, I understood her
callousness to be a defense mechanism, a survival skill. However, in this
moment, she was in a position where she had no choice but to trust.
Several days ago when
Dennis and I learned that we would be bringing this baby into our home all I
could think about was him. My own daughters are now teenagers, so I do not have
the opportunity to nuzzle cheeks and breathe in the sweetest of scents. I love
babies. I am not sure anything on earth makes my heart beat as wildly as babies
do. I pulled out crib sheets and blankets, arranged to borrow a crib and car
seat, thought about what items we might need to purchase for his stay with us.
Without a doubt, he consumed my thoughts and filled my prayers. However, as I
sat across from this mom, I found myself more in a state of ceaseless prayer
for HER. She wasn’t looking for charity,
a free ride. Honestly, I believe, she wished she didn’t need us at all, though
she did not say.
I desired to cut to the heart of the matter, to learn more
about her, more about her son. In her aloofness, I wondered if she would really
open up. Finally, I couldn’t hold back another moment and jumped right in to
gush over her son’s grey eyes, his dainty fingers---how proud she must be of
such an angel—a genuine smile spread across her face and I knew in that moment
there was life just beneath this hard exterior. Twice in our conversation, she
paused, fixed her eyes on her sleeping son and apologized for not being what he
needed her to be. I bit my lower lip and smiled, understanding the desire to be
more, to be better, for my children. Mother to mother, woman to woman, this
broken child (and that is what she is) and me, began what I hope is a wonderful
relationship of trust and support.
I smiled warmly, hoping to ease the certain inner turmoil,
questions, and concerns she might have of us, and talked as if I understood her
struggle, her situation, but I didn’t. She never opened up about her personal
struggles, never shared more than what was asked of her. In fact, most of her
responses were answered matter-of-factly, no inkling of emotion. She never
asked questions of us, however, I found myself asking her over and over again,
“Who is taking care of you? Do you have a support system? Do you have what you
need?” She never answered. She never complained. She avoided these questions,
squirming in her seat, adjusting her hat. I knew the answer and it caused a
deep ache, burdening my heart severely. I wanted her to know that though we would be
caring for her son, she was important to us as well. Her son was here and safe
because of her courage to leave a horrific situation
As Dennis and I drove toward home, I found myself biting the
inside of my cheek in an attempt to keep the tears from falling. This
woman---this woman had made an impact on my heart. Here, I was eager to care
for a baby (my absolute delight) and although we will still have the honor to
care for him, my heart now aches for his mother and all women like her. Homeless, jobless and yet in a better place
than they started. I admire her courage, applaud her, but ache desperately for
her as I know the road ahead is littered with statistics that will beat her
down, rather than lift her up.
A wise and precious friend reminded me of the parable of the
Good Samaritan recently. Remember the story where a man of status and great
knowledge of the law asked Jesus, “How do I inherit eternal life?” to which
Jesus questions back, knowing that this Pharisee knew the laws by heart, “What is the written law?” The man, I assume
proudly shares, the law is to “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and
with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and, to
love your neighbor as yourself”. I picture Jesus smiling as he assures the man
that he his right in his response. The Pharisee, still restless in knowing the
answer, but not truly understanding it’s meaning, asks, “Who is my neighbor?”
Jesus then tells of a man who had been walking alone along a
dirt and dusty road when he was suddenly attacked by brutal robbers. These robbers took his money, beat him
mercilessly, stripped him of his clothes and left him---possibly to die. This
man was most likely a Jew, not favorably looked at, not accepted in the
Samaritan community. The road was one regularly traveled and soon a priest
walked by, he sees the man and crosses the road so as not to bother with him.
Soon, another man, a Levite, comes along and he, too, sees the man but takes no
pity on him. Time passes, and soon a third man, a Samaritan, enemy of Jews, happens
upon the wounded man and swoops down immediately to bandage the man’s wounds,
giving him ointment to care for his open sores. Next, he puts the man onto one
of his donkeys and walks with him into town to an Inn where he can find rest
and recover. The Samaritan has to leave for whatever reason, but not before
giving the innkeeper two silver coins and asks him to look after the wounded
man. He promises that if extra expenses occur he would reimburse him when he
returned.
Jesus wraps up his story there and asks the Pharisee, “Which
of these three men who passed by the wounded man was his neighbor?” The
Pharisee replies, “The one who had mercy on him”. Jesus smiles, and instructs, “Go and do
likewise”. Good at its best is when the
law of the heart eclipses the law of the land.
Putting stereotypes, differences, status, etc. aside, and seeing one
another as neighbors (as brothers and sisters) to show Christ’s bountiful love
in a tangible way is what it means to be a Christ-follower.
My friend pointed out that we do not know what happens with
these men. Do they become friends? Do they part ways? Does the wounded man
attempt to pay him back? Honestly, it doesn’t matter. The point is we are to
show mercy, to show love to those in need.
It is easy to care for our loved ones. Caring for our “neighbor” might
get ugly, dirty even, and possibly leave us in a place of utter brokenness—a
place of absolute dependence upon the Lord. Are we willing to do it anyway?
I can practically hear Jesus’ tender words as he tells us,
“Truly, whatever you have done unto the least of these, you have also done unto
me” (Matt. 25:40). Will I walk by/turn a
blind eye from the wounded, the hurting, the broken or those in need? Will I
make excuses as to why I am not the “right” person for the job, due to time
limitations, lack of resources, or if it doesn’t fit or utilize my
talents/skills/giftedness? I will not. I
will not! Instead, I will embrace the struggle helping another person may be,
the breaking of my heart, I will enter the dirt and grime and put aside
everything for the sake of my Father and His glorious kingdom. I will honor Him
and show His love to his children.
We do not have the baby boy in our care until tomorrow. It
is my hope to show not just him love and acceptance, but his mom too. They are
my neighbors after all.
